Busy.
That's been me! Busy. Work, church, cleaning, driving, and writing have been wearing a brotha out!!!
Yes - I did say driving! God opened the door for me to get a vehicle - a red Nissan Versa. I love "Candy" (her name - I also call her "Ta-dow" and "see me red" as well) - she's comfortable, good on gas, and easy to maneuver.
I've definitely been getting it in with the driving. I've driven all over Cincinnati (I think Pleasant Ridge and Kennedy Heights are the only city neighborhoods I haven't hit, and a couple of the eastern suburbs). I drove to Oxford (and was SALTY I didn't have time to grab some SDS or a toasted roll). I drove to Batesville, IN for some Doritos (that one of my deacons told me that I could've purchased at Sam's Club; I got to get a Sam's card).
The main thing about driving is that I feel so LIBERATED!!! I truly feel that I can come and go freely! I don't feel limited by the time and route of the Metro! I was able to hop in my car and drive to Indiana - I wasn't able to do that before. I was able to go through the drive-thru at Rally's - normally, I would've had to catch two buses and get there before the walk-up window closed. I was able to go to the laundromat and wash all my clothes at the same time, instead of using the laundry room downstairs (there's only three washers and dryers, and usually, only one dryer works because some crackhead always tries to break into the other one that works).
The enemy fought me for a long time in this area. I seriously spent many nights feeling that I would never drive, and that no one could understand my plight. I would find someone to take me out for lessons, and then things would come up in their lives that hindered them from taking me to practice driving. I would save money for driving school, then something would come up where I had to re-appropriate those funds. I would get pissed at people around me who were quick to criticize the fact that I couldn't drive, but offered no solutions or help.
Even in getting my drivers' license, as well as my vehicle, the enemy was fighting. People tried to tell me that my brother and I wouldn't get the rental car so that I do some more practicing and take my driving exam. I had nightmares the entire week before I took my test. The enemy tried to divide me and my brother. I had to rebuke irritability and heaviness that week.
With getting the car, it really stretched my faith. I said that I was gonna step out on faith and go get a car. I hopped on the bus and on the Internet and looked for a car. I had limited funds, but God did exceeding abundantly above what I could ask or think.
I remember the day I got my car (after all, it was only a couple of weeks ago). I had talked with the gentleman at the dealership. I told him that I would come over after work. After work, I caught the bus to Downtown Cincinnati to handle some kingdom business. Then, I rode the 23X out to Tri-County. I remember that I was thanking God that the bus ride to the dealership would be my last bus ride. And, God honored my faith. I drove off that lot with Candy, and went to church to pray, praise God, and rejoice in his provision for me.
Then, God really encouraged me with a prophetic word that Bishop Booker spoke on Friday. He basically let me know that now that I've overcome in this area, that things will be different now in this area. He let me know that I wouldn't have to go through in this area anymore.
Even as I write this blog, I'm feeling emotional. When I drove away in my car, it was as though a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I would no longer have to fight against words that were spoken over me, people trying to make me feel stupid because I went to Walnut Hills [High School], but didn't have a license, or that I went to college, but didn't drive, or that I was a preacher, but had to ride the bus or the church van to church. It may sound silly to many, but I feel liberated, mature, and joyous now. I feel that I'm moving forward like never before.
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